Haunted Visions

 This is another from a very bad time in my heart and soul. Darkness swallowed all I believed, rent my soul into pieces. Nothing of the life I had dreamed seemed to be real, nor was there much pleasure during this time. There were those that captivated my heart with the love of a true golden friend, though that can only carry one so far. I was very badly into self harm.


I doubt my own worth,
Always questioning me,
Close my eyes for comfort,
Only fear do I see,
My thoughts of desire,
Deep and dark in this Hell,
Overwhelming lustful urges,
Mutilation of self,
My tears run red,
My mind craving such things,
Why must I dream,
Of pleasures pain may bring,
The feel of the steel,
Penetration of flesh,
These haunted visions,
My heart cannot rest,
Envisioning your love,
As I open my eyes,
Your voice singing softly,
My final lullaby.

Rachyl DeWitt 12/23/2013