Dear Father

          This is not an easy one to post in all honesty. Throughout my life there have been many issues concerning myself and my father. I do love the man, though through the years there has grown much more distance than should be. During the times of pushing myself forward more over the past several months things have been on the rocks so to speak. I understand the confusions and difficulties with acceptance, though it does leave a mark upon my soul. Please understand in no way am I trying to discredit the man for doing all he has known how. Only expressing that which has festered deep inside of myself.

Dear father,
When you wake what do you see,
Do you see the life you walked on,
When you look down on me,
Do you see how hard I've pushed,
How much I've fought and died,
Bleeding through my open wounds,
Bleeding deep inside,
Do you know how much I cherished you,
Hanging on your words,
The love I felt so long,
Seeming so absurd,
Do you see who stands before you,
No longer what you wish,
Do you know I do not care this time,
My life is still a gift,
I've given in to who I am,
And watched you push me down,
But rise again I will this day,
My strength I now have found,
A woman I shall grow to be,
The love inside now free,
The pain I'll continue to inflict,
To feed those memories.

Rachyl DeWitt 3/4/2014